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I am not sure what to write about here...

I had the thought in my head the other day to logon and write a thing about why I love Oakland sooo much... but I dont feel like writing that right now.

Sometimes my brain is so many places at once it's hard to untangle the mess up there... I am CONSTANTLY thinking... about everything... as I have gotten older I have gotten better.. but I still over think and over analyze life way too much... It used to give me panic attacks...

Here is something to write about:

Ok so I just got a phone call from a friend it kind of pissed me off... He is in a bad spot... well sort of... he kind of sick... but not really, he will get better... this person's partner is not really there for them, cause well he can't be... I get it... It sucks...

BUT!!! They are not doing anything to change their situation. They passively sit back and watch life and feel sorry of them self. They call me and bitch about it like I can do something... They aren't interested in hearing about solutions they want to bitch... and honestly it really pisses me off when people cannot fucking get their own shit together and make something happen...

I have a rule.. You CANNOT complain to me IF you areNT actively doing something to fix the issue... If you have tried something (honestly tried!) and it didn't work out OR you cannot do anything about your situation (this is rare) then BITCH AWAY... but if not then bare down and get your shit together and make your life better... you only have one and there is NO reason that you should spend it bitching about how bad it is!

I live my life as if today were my last day.. because I dont think there is anything after this life so why should I sit back and passively take shit as it comes when I can actively make my life a better thing... And this finally brings me to the my point.. I also do not have time to listen to people bitch about shit I am too busy living my life... sure it always isn't amazing but damn it when it gets to be shitty you know damn well I am going to figure something out to make it better.